7th Honorable Mention. But for them it is still not enough. I thought that for sure I won’t be on the top list, but I still manage to cope up with my grades even though I’m somehow on the edge of a hopeless situation. I thank God for giving an opportunity to still be on the honor list. Thank You O, Lord. I just want my parents to be proud of me and be glad of my achievement but it seems that that wish won’t come true. The heinous days that I’ve came through before came rushing inside my mind. I don’t even want to remember it all. Those effort of sleepless nights and sacrificing a lot time and energy just to meet their expectations circles inside my mind. Why can;t they just realize and see that I’ve been working hard with all my might just for them. All those heartbreaking memories came rushing inside my mind right now. Those days when I’m crying just because of my grades and rank. Those days when they keep on comparing from other students. And the very day they won’t even be proud of what I’ve achieved. It seems that they really expected a lot from me and I’ve disappointed them. Worst that they didn’t even say congratulations or anything that won’t tell me that they are very happy and proud of me. I don;t know but somehow, I’m wishing that I shouldn’t have ever been in the honor list or be on rank 2 last 2 years. Just because of that they cannot appreciate what I’ve came through now. They don’t and I doubt whether they would still hope.
The hardest part of being noticeable is that, many people notice your grandeur changes, but still he can’t. Many people admire you yet he did not. All those praises from others are nonsense. Because the one and only one that you are waiting to speak those words and the one should feel the admiration can’t see all of those. All those efforts of patience and hardwork.
I wonder if Jesus ever looked at his disciples when they were doubting and going astray, smiled, and thought to himself “they have no idea what they are about to do for my kingdom”.
And then I wonder if Jesus looks at me in my moments of sin and weakness, smiles, and thinks to himself “she has no idea what she is about to do for my kingdom”.
"Let your kindness be like the rain,
-Talib al Habib, Al-Habib (via amanialkhat)
That cares not about whom it falls upon…"
Do you know how important you are to God? He cares so much about every detail of your life. He cares about your thoughts, feelings and emotions. In fact, what you are going through is so important to Him that He records every sorrow and collects every tear you’ve shed. Why would God record your sorrows and collect your tears? Because He loves you so much, and He is your Vindicator. He’s keeping account of every wrong that’s ever been done to you so that He can make up for every single one of them. He wants to restore everything that has ever been stolen. He wants to heal every single hurt and pain. He sees the longings and desires of your heart, and you can rest knowing that He is working things out for your good!
So today, know that you are precious to Him. He has your best interest at heart. He is working to bring restoration and peace to you. Keep standing, keep believing, and keep doing the right thing because the One who collects your tears will restore every broken place in your life!
"Then Christ will make His home in your hearts as you trust in Him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, HOW WIDE, HOW LONG, HOW HIGH, AND HOW DEEP HIS LOVE IS. May you experience the love of Christ though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God."- Pauls Prayer for Spiritual Growth: Ephesians 3:17-19
"God saved you by His grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; THIS IS A GIFT FROM GOD. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it. FOR WE ARE GOD’S MASTER PIECE. He has created as ANEW in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago."-
—- Ephesians 2:8-10
The Most Priceless Gift you can ever had in the world. Salvation from the Lord Jesus Christ. All Glory to Him. A gift of hope for a new life. It depends on you whether you accept it or not. Whether you accept it and see the greatness of Our Lord or ignore it and be one again of the people who live worldy in this deceitful world.Be not Brethren. God is with you. You are not alone. <3